trying to help myself

self destructing

Tue, 21 Feb 2012 18:06:00 +1100

self destructing

"I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip."

Tue, 21 Feb 2012 13:54:35 +1100

“I feel lethal, on the verge of frenzy. I think my mask of sanity is about to slip.”

- American Psycho

In bed drinking scotch. Just a normal Friday night.

Fri, 25 Nov 2011 19:45:40 +1100

In bed drinking scotch. Just a normal Friday night.

Have told my fwb that we shouldn’t have sex any more. The sex is good, but I think she wants a...

Wed, 23 Nov 2011 10:16:42 +1100

Have told my fwb that we shouldn’t have sex any more. The sex is good, but I think she wants a lot more and I don’t think I can deliver that. Am I a shit guy?

Having a very bad day today.

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 19:32:41 +1100

Having a very bad day today.

"Everybody thinks their whole life should be at least as much fun as masturbation."

Mon, 21 Nov 2011 11:43:12 +1100

“Everybody thinks their whole life should be at least as much fun as masturbation.”

- Chuck Palahniuk - Choke

When girls say they don’t want to lift weights because they’re worried they’ll get...

Fri, 18 Nov 2011 08:54:45 +1100

When girls say they don’t want to lift weights because they’re worried they’ll get ‘big’, it’s fucking insulting. If lifting weights a couple of days a week was all it took to be Mr Olympia then every guy would be huge as.

Fit Is The New Black: Workout, Food Intake, and Update

Fri, 18 Nov 2011 08:50:14 +1100

Fit Is The New Black: Workout, Food Intake, and Update:

fitisthenewblack:

Update first!

I’ve been crazy busy since…I don’t even know. Between school and a family emergency I was MIA from my fitness routine for 2 days in a row. I got back into the grove today, taking some of my homework to read at the gym. I must have looked corny as hell reading Sister Carrie on the…

This is terrible.

1. ‘Toning’ is not a thing.
2. Doing hours of different kids of cardio at the gym is bizarre.

So I was having sex the other day and in the middle of it this girl comments on how much she likes...

Fri, 18 Nov 2011 08:23:55 +1100

So I was having sex the other day and in the middle of it this girl comments on how much she likes my arms and it kinda ruined it because I fucking hate curl bros.

Had a lot of sex the last few days. Once in a lane way next to a park.

Fri, 18 Nov 2011 08:02:07 +1100

Had a lot of sex the last few days. Once in a lane way next to a park.

Had sex. She came 5 times which is apparently pretty good. The problem with sex being so intimate is...

Mon, 14 Nov 2011 08:15:11 +1100

Had sex. She came 5 times which is apparently pretty good. The problem with sex being so intimate is that I really have no idea what makes me good compared to other guys.

Masturbated once the day before yesterday and once today. Mostly because I am sick.

Sat, 12 Nov 2011 09:20:04 +1100

Masturbated once the day before yesterday and once today. Mostly because I am sick.

It ended up being three times yesterday and sex. I have tonsillitis or something and didn’t...

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 16:06:03 +1100

It ended up being three times yesterday and sex. I have tonsillitis or something and didn’t really want to have sex but was pressured into it. My throat is really sore today. Just chilling in an airport right now. Good to be in a different country for a bit though.

Twice today. Going on holidays tomorrow so hopefully that is a good distraction.

Mon, 07 Nov 2011 10:28:35 +1100

Twice today. Going on holidays tomorrow so hopefully that is a good distraction.

"All it comes down to is this: I feel like shit but look great."

Sun, 06 Nov 2011 21:16:58 +1100

““All it comes down to is this: I feel like shit but look great.””

- American Psycho - Bret Easton Ellis

Ended up going out and having sex last night and this morning with fuck buddy. Still found time to...

Sun, 06 Nov 2011 10:29:51 +1100

Ended up going out and having sex last night and this morning with fuck buddy. Still found time to watch Fringe though.

This is my dp. Something I whipped up myself. It’s a bit...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 20:36:00 +1100

This is my dp. Something I whipped up myself. It’s a bit lame. I did a whole series of them one time.

Managed to masturbate again. So much for limiting myself to once per day. Now contemplating having a...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 20:34:29 +1100

Managed to masturbate again. So much for limiting myself to once per day. Now contemplating having a shower and going to a party or putting on the latest episode of Fringe. Should do the former but I’m leaning hard towards the latter.

Masturbated again today. Turned down sex. That’s fair enough right?

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 19:37:35 +1100

Masturbated again today. Turned down sex. That’s fair enough right?

Have you always looked good? Or did you make an effort to work out and get fit and all that at some point, but then you still had problems?

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 19:34:40 +1100

I’ve always been into sports but I think that the problems in my life started before I started really hitting the gym hard. The only time I feel normal is after I’ve had a good workout. I guess it’s the closest I can get to anti-depressants without seeing a doctor.